Right this very moment; I just don't know what the hell's happening. A guy friend just asked me a question about us ladies…

"Why are you girls always so busy? Is it so difficult to find some little time off for a guy?"

And with that said, I haven't got the chance to reply... he sent me a message...saying that he's crying over it. what the.. what THE. WHAT THE SHIT? HE'S CRYING?! FUCK! Oh maaaan... I swear I was feeling damn guilty and was seconds away from dialing his number…If not for my sister SNORING here, i would've called…

I never encountered a guy crying in all my life. Really… and what’s worse? Its because of me! Damn! I didn’t realize I was that influential? Surely not! I am a hell of a clueless person…but oh well can’t avoid the fact that it’s kinda my fault. But I really don’t know what the hell to say in situations like these…because I just suck at it.

Okay, Its just that sometimes you gotta have this unavoidable feeling that he's definitely talking about you, and then he’s just assuming that he's talking bout girls in general. Hey dude, that is just messed up, SERIOUSLY. Never, i repeat, NEVER, categorize me and other GIRLS similarly. Heck, we're all made differently! Well...just that the ones you've met are the same i guess…Well anyway, the point is, I just don’t get why you view me the same as them? It kinda hurts me a little, in case you didn’t notice…and the fact that what you told me is EXACTLY what I told you about the promise to meet you. When I PROMISE someone to meet them, I DO IT. Its not just a matter of words anymore, okay? Its not a lie, because my will to see that person whom I PROMISE to meet is so strong, I WILL DO IT. Don’t underestimate me like you did with your other ‘girlfriends’ its just…wrong! You have to understand that I’m busy with bitchy school, and what with my lazy assed attitude to pass up the effing assignments, you get the drift…well…I never abandon my friends, you know? People who abandon friends are just lower than dirt! And I am not like that. Well Im just glad that you poured out these feeling for me and I really appreciate it when you decide to tell it to me. It really feels that we are closer day by day, even if we’ve never met each other face to face for a whole 10 years. I swear, I will meet you, just wait for me…